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I see all thing in this world as natural.. and totally believe we are the one who make it be positive, negative, interestng, boring, enjoyable or anything...

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

my 100 truth

1. Last beverage( Coffee)
2. Last phone call - ( My love)
3. Last text message - (Sudir : boy friend)
4. Last song you listened to - ( Lara by Samsons)
5. Last time you cried -(Last night )
6. Dated someone twice -( Yes)
7. Been cheated on - (Yes)
8. Kissed someone & regretted it - ( No)
9. Lost someone special - (Yes)
10. Been depressed - (Yes)
11. Been drunk and threw up -( No)
15. Made a new friend - (Yes)
16. Fallen out of love - ( YES! )
17. Laughed until you cried - (Yes)
18. Met someone who changed you - (Yes. )
19. Found out who your true friends were - (Yes)
20. Found out someone was talking about you - (Yes)
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list - ( Sally kali haha)
22. Do you in love now?? - (A big YES)
23. How many kids do you want - ( 4..2 boys n 2 girls)
24. Do you have any pets - ( No since I have asthma)
25. Do you want to change your name - (No)
26. What did you do for your sweet seventeen birthday - ( at hostel..given suprised by my 'sygness'. They threw flour n water on me..hehe:) )
27. What time did you wake up today - ( 11.02 am..)
28. What were you doing at midnight last night - ( Downloaded songs, watched movies)
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for - (There is something. Waiting for miracles to come)
30. Last time you saw your Mother - (Just now)
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life - (Be a good & rsponsible daughter to her parents)
32. What are you listening to right now - ( Listening to music)
34. What's getting on your nerves right now - (My love)
35. Most visited webpage - (facebook & instagram)
36. Whats your real name - ( Irmah Binti Anwar)
37. Nicknames - ( Mamah )
38. Relationship Status - (In love with Mohd Ghazalih)
39. Zodiac sign - ( LIBRA)
40. Male or female - (Female)
41. Primary School - ( Sek. Pekan Kunak)
42. Secondary School - (SMK Kunak & SMK Kunak Jaya)
43. High school/college - (UiTM KK)
44. Hair colour - ( Black)
45. Long or short - ( short)
46. Height - ( Unusually not tall..Hehe..155cm )
47. Do you have a crush on someone - (nope!)
48: What do you like about yourself - ( -crazy-Love food-fun-loving and romantic :) )
49. Piercings - (Yes)
50. Tattoos - (Nope)
51. Received presents - (Yes)
52. First surgery - (Never)
53. First piercing - ( Forgot)
54. First tattoo - (Never had one)
55. First sport you joined - (Netball)
56. First vacation- ( Indonesia )
58. First boyfriend/girlfriend - ( Can't remember. Means, I had lots. HAHA )
59. Eating -(Nope)
60. Drinking - (No)
61. I'm about to - (eat)
62. Listening to - ( musics)
63. Waiting for - ( nothing )
64. Want kids - (Yes)
65. Get Married - (Yes)
66. Career - ( Lecturer )
67. Lips or eyes - (Eyes)
68. Hugs or kisses - ( Hugs)
69. Shorter or taller - ( Tall)
70. Older or Younger - (Older)
71. Romantic or spontaneous - (Spontaneous )
72. Nice stomach or nice arms - (Stomach)
73. Sensitive or loud - (Loud)
74. Hook-up or relationship - (Relationships)
75. Trouble maker or hesitant - (Troublemaker)
76. Kissed a stranger - ( No)
77. Drank hard liquor - (No)
78. Lost glasses/contacts - (Yes)
79. Sex on first date - (No)
80. Broken someone's heart - (Yes)
82. Been arrested - (Nope)
83. Turned someone down - (Yes)
84. Cried when someone died - ( Yes)
85. Fallen for a friend - (Yes)
86. Yourself - (Yes but there is sometimes, I lost my confidence at all)
87. Miracles - (Sure)
88. Love at first sight - (YES)
89. Heaven - (Yes)
90. Religion - (Yes)
91. Kiss on the first date - (No)
92. God - (Yes)
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time - ( Yes)
95. Did you sing today - ( Yes)
96. Ever cheated on somebody - (Yes)
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go - ( Childhood )
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be - (My birthday)
99. Afraid of falling in love - ( No)
100. Posting this as 100 truths - (Yes)

Wordless thursday

Sometimes I wake at night and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?" And a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Barakallah ya Ukhti

Alhamdulillah. Persahabatan hampir 16 tahun. Akhirnya sahabatku ini menjadi milik orang. Barakallah ya Faridah & suami. 

 Ya.. x ramai. Ini jak yg ada.. Memang laa betul cuti sem tapi budak2 monyet yg lain sibuk dgn pentauliahan la apa laa. HAHA.. Kidding :*

 Jangan tertipu.. Ini effect peng-cahayaan.. Flawless kan? HIHI...

Okeh. Yg ini lucu. Memang gerek sehhh,  kawin Faridah ni.  Pendek kan cerita kan, rumah Faridah kan sudah tebakar haritu time first ramadhan. So, nikah dekat masjid la. Pastuh, kami memang kena inform yang xda sanding, cuma nikah, pastu pegi makan dekat restoran wokehh. HAHA. Sampai jak d restoran, tekejut juga la tengok restoran tuh kena hias dengan pelaminan & meja santapan Raja Sehari. Daebakkk!!

Hehe nih dia pengantin baru kita.. Kecik kan husband dia? Kecik ka atau faridah yg tinggi? Hurmmm..

Memang Faridah laa yg tinggi.. Tengok tu naa.. HEHE.. Tapi org2 tua cakap, kalau suami lg rendah dpd sang isteri, Insha Allah murah rezeki..Amin. 

*So, what am I going  to conclude? Well, nikah nih simple. Yang menyukarkan adalah manusia itu sendiri.. Hurm, mudah2an di permudahkan  apa yang sukar itu. Amin3 Ya Allah...

Friday, August 15, 2014


Throwback kawin ex classmate.. Alhamdulillah, sorang lagi kawan kami suda tumpas.. HAHA.. Tahniah Meng & husband.. Lama x berjumpa akhirnya d pertemuan kami di majlis persandingannyaa. Terpisah sejak tingkatan 4. Hampir 8 tahun lamanya.. Semoga persahabatan ini kekal selamanyaa.. Amin..

Tuesday, August 5, 2014


At the bottom of her heart, however, she was waiting for something to happen. Like shipwrecked sailors, she turned despairing eyes upon the solitude of her life, seeking afar off some white sail in the mists of the horizon. She did not know what this chance would be, what wind would bring it her, towards what shore it would drive her, if it would be a shallop or a three-decker, loaded with pain or full of bliss to the windows. But each morning, as she awoke, she hoped it would come that day; she listened to every sound, sprang up with a start, wondered that it did not come..then at sunset, always more saddened, she longed for the morrow.

Monday, August 4, 2014

I ask the impossible

I ask the impossible: love me forever.

Love me when all desire is gone.

When the world in its entirety,and all that you hold sacred advise you against it: love me still more.

When rage fills you and has no name: love me.

When each step from your door to our job tires you, love me, and from job to home again, love me, love me.

Love me when you're bored,when every woman you see is more beautiful than the last or more pathetic.

Love me as you always have:not as admirer or judge, but with the compassion you save for yourself in your peace.

Love me as you enjoy your loneliness,the anticipation of your death,mysteries of the flesh, as it tears and mends.

Love me as your most treasured childhood memory and if there is none to recall,imagine one, place me there with you.

Love me as if I were forever and I, will make the impossible a simple act,by loving you, loving you as I do.

wordless monday

Behind these eyes there is a girl trapped within her pain – a girl feeling all the emotions of anger and sadness. She’s fighting for a way out.

One by one, drops fell from her eyes like they were on an assembly line - gather, fall, slide...gather, fall, slide...each one commemorating something she had lost. Hope. Faith. Confidence. Pride. Security. Trust. Independence. Joy. Beauty. Freedom. Innocence

I stare at my reflection in the mirror:"Why am I doing this to myself?". Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf. No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars! Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing, It's okay not to be okay. Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart. Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising.  I just try to be true to who am I!

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Cinta Satukan Kita

Dia sepi di sini
Tak seperti yang lain
Walau sudah takdirnya
Namun dia tetap tersenyum
Bahagialah bila
Kau masih punya mimpi
Hidup hanya sekali
Berikanlah yang terbaik
Merindukan purnama
Bertahan walau di dalam duka
Bersyukurnyalah kita
Masih banyak yang sayangi kita


Friday, August 1, 2014


Masalah. Makin hari makin mendekati. Ikhlas? Ya. Mudah dilafazkan tapi sangat sukar untuk di laksanakan. Kini, hanya kekuatan yg aku perlukan untuk terus bersabar dengan dugaan yang datang kepada diriku. Ya Allah.. tetapkan pendirianku. Yakinkan aku bahawa aku mampu mengharungi semua ini. Agar dapat aku buktikan pada dunia bahawa aku berhak untuk bahagia. Keyakinanku pada Mu melebihi apa yg ada di atas muka bumi ini. Jauhkan laa kesedihan dari hatiku ya Allah. Aku mohon... ;(

Monday, July 28, 2014

eid mubarak 2014

Alhamdulillah.. Terima kasih atas kehidupan yg Engkau pinjamkan ini Ya Allah.. Kini telah masuk bulan Syawal. Bulan kemenangan bg umat Islam. Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah...

Sedang kita bersuka ria, ingat ka kita pada saudara muslim kita di Gaza?? Apa santapan mereka pada pagi ini?? Adakah kemenangan yg mereka rasakan?? Tahukah kita apa yg mereka lakukan sekarang??

Di saat kita sedang berkumpul dengan keluarga serta saudara mara tersayang, ada di antara mereka yg sedang bersedih kerana kehilangan anak, suami mahupun isteri. Di saat kita mempersiapkan diri menghias ruma serta bernyanyi riang, mereka di sana pula kehilangan tempat tinggal mereka && hanya berlindung &&  berdoa kepada Tuhan-Nya.

Ya Allah... Engkau beri lah kemenangan kepada mereka di sana sepertimana umat Islam yg lainnya sedang menikmati kemenangan Syawal ini. Titipkan kekuatan di dalam hati mereka agar cekal menghadapi Zionis Laknatullah..

Wahai mujahid mujahidah Allah di Gaza, doa kami bersama kalian. Terima kasih kerana tetap berada di sana mewakili kami semua umat Islam di dunia mempertahankan bumi suci itu.. Semoga Allah merestui perjuangan kamu && syurga la tempat yg paling layak untuk kalian.. Inshaa Allah aaminnn3x ya Allah..

Friday, July 25, 2014


Sebenarnyaa, aku sendiri baru tau tentang kewujudan benda nih. Tidak laa baru sangat.. Ada la dalam 3-4 bulan lepas. Time tuh we ollsss ada fieldtrip fakulti. So, dalam perjalanan pulang tuh kami ada singgah di Taman Nabalu. And I saw most of my girl friends bought of  this thing. Aku tanya gitu2 jalaa. Apa benda tuh tapi xda intention pown mau beli sebab ntah apa2 jak bulu2 ayam segala. HAHA. 

Sehingga laa satu hari nih mau dijadikan cerita, dekat2 exam, time org struggle bukak buku, aku plak selongkar hardisk kawan aku && terjumpalaa drama Korea ini yg bertajuk "The Heirs". Kenak lagi main actor dia Lee Min Ho. Perghh!! 3 ari 3 malam aku duduk depan laptop jak menghadap mukak si Min Ho nih. Hihi :D. For those yg minat crita Korea & belum pernah nonton drama nih, I suggest la u guys nonton crita nih. Best jugak laa. Yg xbest, ending dia.. Sinila baru aku kenal betul2 apa itu dreamcatcher yg kawan2 aku beli. 

Haaa.. nih dia Min Ho yg I war-war kan dr td.. Hensem x. Hensem x? Hehe.. Dalam crita nih dia pegang watak sebagai Kim Tan.. 

Antara babak yg paling aku ingat tentang dreamcatcher nih....

Kim Tan: What is this?
Eun Sang: Dreamcatcher.
It's supposed to catch bad dreams.
Only pretty dreams come through the hole.

The native american belief is that when you hang a dream catcher over you while you sleep, your dreams will go through it and the nightmares are caught

So, ada yg percaya dengan benda nih? Urmm for me, jangan la sampai taksub okay. Kalau setakat gantung buat perhiasan tuh boleh la.. Jangan laa percaya sangat sampai semua tingkap mau gantung benda nih. HAHAHAHA..Apapun, selamat malam semuanya.. Have a sweet dreams. Hug. Kisses. 

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Thanks love

U know, there were too many things happened into my life for these whole year. Suka && duka. I felt it. Everyone do feel it. What makes me different with the people outside is.."courage". Sometimes, I feel lost. Lost to the word that I have spoken.


I am wearing the smile that he gave to me. Everyday. Even the reality is hard, he tell me to not loose hope. And he makes me believe, there is some good in this world, and it's worth fighting for.

We look into each other's eyes as we shake. His are still full of death and horror, but in them I see my face reflected, and inside my tiny eyes inside his, I think I see some hope.
Even the world against us, still.  I will take you and I will love you, again. 

Thanks love. Thanks for your warmness. Thanks for your kindness. Thanks for lots of love that u showered to me.